I decided...

   I am sick of living my life backwards...*cough* excuse me, I supposed introductions are in order before I go ranting on. My name is Nanook. I am in my mid twenties and I am an ANA. I became very actively PRO-ANA about 5 years ago. I was getting ready to move to Los Angeles and living the life of a 20 something 287 pound young woman wasn't suiting me anymore. So I kicked my butt in gear, began to exersize, became vegetarian, and changed my world with ANA ideals. I dropped 120 lbs and was continuing with such a powerful resolve when the unthinkable happened...

   I got sick, not from being ANA, ended up in the hospital with what they thought was a routine gallbladder surgery, turns out, it wasn't so routine. My gallbladder had become septic, which means pure poison, and it had swelled to 3 times it's size and was crushing my liver. I began to put on weight super fast...went from 140 to 198 in a matter of 3 weeks. The doctors had to keep me and observe and try and help, but all they really could do in the end was save my life during surgery. I died for 3 seconds. Came back with a fucked up liver and a case of RGS. Rapid Weight Gain Syndrome.  It's usually based on the fact that your liver is not functioning properly good news is it eventually heals and you can bounce back, although it takes a heck of a lot more will power and focus the second time around. :( WHICH IS HARD TO COME BY!

   So that's why I am here...to blog about, discuss, and empower myself as an ANA. To regain my ANA resolve and to get back down to 140...AND THEN...KEEP GOING TILL I REACH A BEAUTIFUL...Picturesque Princess. I need help! I want to connect to other ANAs again. I need ANA friends, so badly. None of my friends around me really understand what I am going through.


    I also attach my ANA to my spiritual beliefs. I am a Christian, more of a hippie Christian, who believes that God made us to be healthy and not fat. I believe that starving the flesh is to feed the spirit. HOWEVER...I don't believe in starving yourself to the point of emaciation. Anyone wanna be friends? ;)

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